Feel What You Need To

I know. And I don’t really have an excuse for it.

And to be honest, I don’t even plan of coming up with any.

I didn’t blog. Period.

I am just going to take responsibility for it.

I didn’t feel like it.

Maybe because I had a lot on my plate as I was rushing to finish my final requirements for my PhD classes.

Or maybe I was launching Pride campaigns for brands left and right.

Balancing work with my family time while attending to my personal needs in between.

I won’t even try to justify it by pointing these out.

I am just sharing.

Because in reality, the bottom line was that:

I didn’t feel like it.

There I said it.

And yes, I said it with all humility and vulnerability that I could muster.

Because contrary to popular belief, I am not always my best.

Even if I champion for #bestmeever .

Because much like everyone else, I am also human.

I have great days and days when I just don’t feel like doing anything.

There are days I go beyond deliverables and days when I have to pause and park them first.

There are days when I am unstoppable. And days I just do a hard stops.

But one thing is certain: I love myself during all those days.

And that means recognizing what I feel each time I do a task or commit to something.

While acknowledging the fact that not every day can be as productive as others and that’s ok.

That my feelings are valid and I should listen to them so that I don’t shortchange others or myself as well in the process of subscribing to half-baked output or mustering half-hearted enthusiasm.

And that’s where I am coming from as I write this: to let everyone know that it’s ok to acknowledge your feelings and do what’s best for you.

Even if others may not agree with your choices or when the odds aren’t exactly in your favor.

What is important is that you are willing and able to take responsibility for yourself, your emotions and your actions accordingly, no matter how they may look like at that particular point in time.

Pausing (and sometimes stopping fully) is your friend. Never view it as something that will hold you back from your goals.

Like when you feel like you’re not your best, honor that space by pausing and reflecting on what is it teaching you? What do you need to address so that you can feel motivated again?

When you feel angry, ask yourself what boundaries have been crossed and how can you establish them firmly the next time around?

When you feel hurt, stop and reflect about what’s causing it and what can help ease the pain that’s under your control that you’re willing to take responsibility for?

When you feel like you’re trailing behind in life, pause and reflect about who’s standards are you following and what can help you appreciate yourself more?

When you feel like giving up, pause and remember the times you’ve succeeded with or without anyone else’s help, because now it can just be the same for you if you just recalibrate and push through.

When you feel like celebrating yourself just because, by all means do so. You deserve to honor yourself with or without any milestones achieved because as you are, you are worth celebrating.

There were moments in the last few weeks that I felt I had to blog because it’s been a while. That I must write something so that I keep my readers hooked.

Admittedly, I tried. But I remembered by doing so, I will be unfair to myself and to everyone reading my post as it won’t come from inspiration, but rather from obligation.

And that hit me hard, enough for me to give myself enough time and space to figure out my own cadence and allow myself to wait guilt-free until I am ready.

And today, that just happened.

I sat down. And started to write. Continuously.